I am a type of person who gets attached easily to people who are nice to me. But something in the past has happened that made me realize that what i thought was an attachment was more of being clingy. And one of my friend pointed it out to me. I woke up from that nightmare and became who i am today... enjoying life to the full, enjoying being single and enjoying being alone. Though i must admit, there are times that i wish i am with my friends. Though i find happiness even when i am alone, i still miss the old times and the laughter with my old and close friends. The friends who never left me even when they learn the worst in me. But there are times that i still feel sad and wished they are just around so when i need someone to talk to, there's someone who'll listen to my rumblings. Unfortunately everyone is busy with their own lives. Busy with work, with their family or simply with their lives. So, most of the time i am left alone. But not really that alone as i live with my Dad and my brother, and my brother who's already married with three kids are just around the corner, our neighbor, but still their world is different than mine.. hahaha.. Maybe that's why i found myself being in the world of internet and eventually in the world of Kim Hyun Joong.. hahaha.. oh well.. where is this entry going at? i thought i just want to share my sentiments about what happened a week ago.. haha.. okay, here it is.. lols
A week ago a senior colleague of mine went to retire from work.. He was given a tribute and everyone in our department and some from other department's were invited... i used to be a part of the division where he is assigned but i was detailed to another division for other assignment. i am not good in counting (kekeke meaning i am forgetful lols) but i think, it's been more than a year since i was transferred but i still consider my old division my home and my colleagues there a family, in my heart that is. But reality is, when i was transferred to another division, i already accepted the fact that i am not part of them anymore. But during that time, on his party.. Reality hits me.. coz during his party, they played a video message from his present and old colleagues, even people from other division who were once his family in that division (who where also detailed to another division like me) where there in that video.. just... not... ME.. i felt like, uhuh.. he's like a dad to me, i used to go to his working area and greet him... i used to asked and eat some of his "baon" (food he brings to work) coz it is delicious.. i used to joke with him.. laugh at his antics.. laugh at his expressions.. coz he is one funny guy ^_^ but that time, when i didn't saw my face on the video, where mostly everyone gave their greetings for him (mostly coz some are not there too... but i don't know how they felt, i am talking about me.. lmao), as much as i want to deny it but there's a pinch in my heart, i felt sad, but i guess i am still attached to my old division (i have friends in that division too.. oh well, i consider them friends but i don't know about them to me.. lmao).. and even though i tried to hide it even to myself, i really felt so sad.. in my head i was thinking, "so, this is it.. i am not really part of that division anymore".. though my item is still in that division, meaning in papers i am still part of that division, but since i was detailed to another division (okay redundant use of the word division.. lmao), i am now with a new family and not the old one anymore.. my old division is the happiest division, for me that is, whenever there's an occasion, they always rent a videoke for everyone and we will sing our hearts out... even though my Papsie (coz i treat a lot of my guy colleagues there like a Dad since they knew my Dad since i was a kid.. lmao) told me i got an ugly voice.. i admit to that, i love to sing but i got an awful voice but i don't give a damn, i just love to sing.. pwahahahahhaahha... and they will just let me be and Papsie will just give up and let me sing... hahahahahahha.. woooottttttttttt... we will just enjoy and be happy when most of the personnel form other divisions had already went home, we will still enjoy to the full.. coz it just happens once in a while after all, the loads of work we have are really eating our time.. huh.. so when there's an occasion we really make it a point to relax, enjoy and be happy ^_^
Oh well, since i was really sad that time, i did't join their celebration and just went back to my place and work.. i sent sms to my close friends whom i know would be available to accompany me, unfortunately the other one forgot to bring her mobile with her and the other one has an overtime... I want to be with someone, to talk to someone to let out my feelings but i guess, i told God "i guess there's no one, so i will just go and stroll in a mall".. so i went, i went to a parlor and have my hair trimmed, and i went to visit "The Face Shop" because i know i will see my Angel Prince Kim Hyun Joong's face there and besides, every time i enter that store, i feel i am warped in a world that's so far beyond my reality coz i feel elated, ecstatic and happy whenever i enter that shop with my Angel Prince's face all over the store.. pwahahhahaha... and true enough, when i entered that store i went out without cash but with a big smile on my face because my Angel Prince is smiling at me.. lmao.. then i called my friend Dan, i also sent message to her mobile (after i sent message to my two close friends who weren't available to accompany me.. kekeke) and told her what i am feeling.. she's out of the country so i didn't asked her to accompany me.. lmao.. i called her up coz i was so excited with my TFS products and i felt so happy warping in KHJs world that i want to share it to her.. lols. it's the first time talking to her over the phone, i met Dan in the world of my Angel Prince and we became like sisters, yes that's how i treat her.. my sister.. and she's a sweet soul.. she even sent an early birthday gift to me.. hahahaha.. i am so loving my gift and i am so loving my sister Dan.. hahahahaah.. oh well, after we talked, she told me to go home already but while i was walking i noticed a Korean Restaurant, and it is new.. they are still renovating some part of the mall and that Restaurant is a new one.. so i entered there and eat "Bibimbap" alone! hahaha. everyone else around me are laughing with their friends, some are celebrating birthdays coz i hear the staff sing "생일축하합니다 (saengil chukha hamnida)", some are family eating first time in a Korean Restaurant (i know coz i heard them.. lmao ~~ eavesdropping??? nah they are just too loud.. lmao) and they are all having fun.. but me, i am all ALONE in my world and guess what??? i am also enjoying my "Bibimbap" and side dishes that includes my favorite "Kimchi" while exchanging messages to my friend Dan (she's a girl.. it's just her alias in KHJ world.. lmao) .. the sadness and loneliness that i felt was gone and i was having a great time eating alone.. pwahahahha.. when i went home, i gather the things i bought and took pictures of it.. i don't know why but i just felt happy doing it.. lmao.. here are some of my pictures that i took that night.. kekekeke (from TFS, my dinner and in my room)
A week ago a senior colleague of mine went to retire from work.. He was given a tribute and everyone in our department and some from other department's were invited... i used to be a part of the division where he is assigned but i was detailed to another division for other assignment. i am not good in counting (kekeke meaning i am forgetful lols) but i think, it's been more than a year since i was transferred but i still consider my old division my home and my colleagues there a family, in my heart that is. But reality is, when i was transferred to another division, i already accepted the fact that i am not part of them anymore. But during that time, on his party.. Reality hits me.. coz during his party, they played a video message from his present and old colleagues, even people from other division who were once his family in that division (who where also detailed to another division like me) where there in that video.. just... not... ME.. i felt like, uhuh.. he's like a dad to me, i used to go to his working area and greet him... i used to asked and eat some of his "baon" (food he brings to work) coz it is delicious.. i used to joke with him.. laugh at his antics.. laugh at his expressions.. coz he is one funny guy ^_^ but that time, when i didn't saw my face on the video, where mostly everyone gave their greetings for him (mostly coz some are not there too... but i don't know how they felt, i am talking about me.. lmao), as much as i want to deny it but there's a pinch in my heart, i felt sad, but i guess i am still attached to my old division (i have friends in that division too.. oh well, i consider them friends but i don't know about them to me.. lmao).. and even though i tried to hide it even to myself, i really felt so sad.. in my head i was thinking, "so, this is it.. i am not really part of that division anymore".. though my item is still in that division, meaning in papers i am still part of that division, but since i was detailed to another division (okay redundant use of the word division.. lmao), i am now with a new family and not the old one anymore.. my old division is the happiest division, for me that is, whenever there's an occasion, they always rent a videoke for everyone and we will sing our hearts out... even though my Papsie (coz i treat a lot of my guy colleagues there like a Dad since they knew my Dad since i was a kid.. lmao) told me i got an ugly voice.. i admit to that, i love to sing but i got an awful voice but i don't give a damn, i just love to sing.. pwahahahahhaahha... and they will just let me be and Papsie will just give up and let me sing... hahahahahahha.. woooottttttttttt... we will just enjoy and be happy when most of the personnel form other divisions had already went home, we will still enjoy to the full.. coz it just happens once in a while after all, the loads of work we have are really eating our time.. huh.. so when there's an occasion we really make it a point to relax, enjoy and be happy ^_^
Oh well, since i was really sad that time, i did't join their celebration and just went back to my place and work.. i sent sms to my close friends whom i know would be available to accompany me, unfortunately the other one forgot to bring her mobile with her and the other one has an overtime... I want to be with someone, to talk to someone to let out my feelings but i guess, i told God "i guess there's no one, so i will just go and stroll in a mall".. so i went, i went to a parlor and have my hair trimmed, and i went to visit "The Face Shop" because i know i will see my Angel Prince Kim Hyun Joong's face there and besides, every time i enter that store, i feel i am warped in a world that's so far beyond my reality coz i feel elated, ecstatic and happy whenever i enter that shop with my Angel Prince's face all over the store.. pwahahhahaha... and true enough, when i entered that store i went out without cash but with a big smile on my face because my Angel Prince is smiling at me.. lmao.. then i called my friend Dan, i also sent message to her mobile (after i sent message to my two close friends who weren't available to accompany me.. kekeke) and told her what i am feeling.. she's out of the country so i didn't asked her to accompany me.. lmao.. i called her up coz i was so excited with my TFS products and i felt so happy warping in KHJs world that i want to share it to her.. lols. it's the first time talking to her over the phone, i met Dan in the world of my Angel Prince and we became like sisters, yes that's how i treat her.. my sister.. and she's a sweet soul.. she even sent an early birthday gift to me.. hahahaha.. i am so loving my gift and i am so loving my sister Dan.. hahahahaah.. oh well, after we talked, she told me to go home already but while i was walking i noticed a Korean Restaurant, and it is new.. they are still renovating some part of the mall and that Restaurant is a new one.. so i entered there and eat "Bibimbap" alone! hahaha. everyone else around me are laughing with their friends, some are celebrating birthdays coz i hear the staff sing "생일축하합니다 (saengil chukha hamnida)", some are family eating first time in a Korean Restaurant (i know coz i heard them.. lmao ~~ eavesdropping??? nah they are just too loud.. lmao) and they are all having fun.. but me, i am all ALONE in my world and guess what??? i am also enjoying my "Bibimbap" and side dishes that includes my favorite "Kimchi" while exchanging messages to my friend Dan (she's a girl.. it's just her alias in KHJ world.. lmao) .. the sadness and loneliness that i felt was gone and i was having a great time eating alone.. pwahahahha.. when i went home, i gather the things i bought and took pictures of it.. i don't know why but i just felt happy doing it.. lmao.. here are some of my pictures that i took that night.. kekekeke (from TFS, my dinner and in my room)
But honestly, i still miss my friends ^_^
~~ An Angel Spirit is the Spirit of Friendshp ~~
ooopppppsssss i forget to say this ~~ Sis Dan, i want to say thank you too.. because even though you were far away that time, it felt like you are just near and i am not really alone.. yes, literally i am just with myself.. haha.. but our exchange of messages talking about our favorite Kim Hyun Joong and Ssangchu Couple (Kim Hyun Joong and Hwangbo Hye Jung) really put a smile on my face ^__^ ~~ i have to put this coz she told me she will read this entry and analyze what i wrote (about her??? i don't know.. lmao)
