this is raw.. just written on a whim.. just want to rant a bit about my life.. roflmao.. well, just about me.. lols..
it's been 10 years since i entered the office where i am working right now.. gah, ten long years!! it's my Anniversary today.. April 10, 2013.. i entered April 10, 2003..
oh, it's my eldest Brother's Birthday too today.. Happy Birthday Kuya ^^
i entered office a year after my Mom left us.. April 13, 2002 when she bid goodbye, finally laid to rest and went to be with Papa God in heaven... sigh.. i miss her >_< but as what my Angel Prince Hyun Joong said, whenever you miss someone, just close your eyes and you will see them .. coz you feel them in your heart ^^
looking back, i realized a lot of changes had happened in my life.. i have learned to accept things as they come and learned to laugh more and smile often.. become more thankful for the blessings that comes my way either in positive or negative way.. and learned to love myself more.. i gained new friends, old true-real friends remained but also lost some because they realized i am not the person they want me to be as their friend.. lols.. i might lost them but i have gained more ^^ and got a healthier relationship with my true-real friends..
but still, there are things that i wasn't able to change.. things that remained that i need to change.. things that i need to let go so i would be better.. things that i should just leave behind.. i just hope that through my life's journey, i would be able to move on and let go of those things that i have to let go so i would succeed in this lifetime and eventually fulfill my dreams... and no regrets when it's time for me to be on the second life...
aaahhhh one thins is i wanna be like my Angel Princess Hwangbo Hye Jung, doing charities and helping the less fortunate >_< .. a dream since i was a kid, i remember when i was still in college.. first college University i entered, coz i changed school after one semester.. kekeke.. we were asked to write about our dreams and i wrote to say i want to follow Mother Teresa's footsteps, the living Saint then.. i want to be like her and to help the poorest of the poor.. now looking back, was it just all talk for me??? was i just so drawn to her story and in reality i really don't want to >_< gahhhhhh.. i feel so bad really.. i have so many reasons to myself, i say i don't have enough money to help... i don't have this and that.. gah.. why can't i be like my Angel Princess, a real Angel.. compassionate, caring and loving.. gahhhh, can i have just 5% of what she has? aaahhhh help me Papa God to be compassionate, caring and loving too.. gahhhhhh.. i really feel so bad.. aaahhh i really need to work hard to attain all my dreams in life.. but i do want to help the less fortunate too...
actually, there are so much things that i want to do.. so many things that i need to do.. if i won't act, i will run out of time.. as what my Angel Prince Kim Hyun Joong said, "Life is One Shot" .. so i have to give my BEST shot in this lifetime.. i don't want to leave the earth with all regrets in my heart.. i have to do all the things that i want to do.. act act act.. work work work hard.. please help me Papa God.. please help me.. will and determination.. courage and strength.. please lend it to me .. please Papa God.. Thanks so much ^^
ahoooo.. okay.. i'll stop here.. i have so many things i want to write still but my brain stopped working.. lols.. kidding aside, i lost my focus now.. hahaahah.. awhile ago there are a lot of things running through my head and i wanted to put it all here but now, i am just facing my netbook and not really knowing what i want to write.. awwwww.. crazy moment for me.. lols.. besides, it's already April 11, 2013.. i am supposed to post this April 10, 2013!!! roflmao.. okay fine.. whatever.. lols.. aja aja Fighting for me! Good luck on my life's journey ^^
