as what everyone's favorite line these days.. "This is a Free World.. I can Say whatever i want to say" wooohhhooo .. i will also be free with my thoughts and perspective.. besides, this is my blog.. i made this to rant or say whatever i want to say.. lmao
When i arrived home from work last Friday night, a bit tired, i prepared dinner for myself since everyone have already had their dinner.. then after that as part of my relaxation, i opened my netbook and checked for updates (of my Angels of course.. lols), fan fictions of my favorite Ssangchu Couple, facebook, JB Soompi.. my emails for my two email account.. lols.. then i went to check for updates on tweetdeck/twitter.. coz updates from my Angels Kim Hyun Joong and Hwangbo Hye Jung are one of my daily dose to make my day complete with full of joy, but that's other than reading positive thoughts, listening and reading my Angel Preacher's Bro. Bo Sanchez talk, and all other positive books and articles..
anyway, when i opened my twitter account, i got three (3) direct messages (dm) all from my JoongBo siblings but what caught my attention was the two (2) messages informing me about something that made their blood boils and goes up to their head.. lmao (just kidding but they were a bit pissed off and disappointed) but i do understand them, who wouldn't lose their heads when you read something that is against your belief.. lols.. i used to get affected with such things too, but now i just laugh at it.. when i read other people's opinion, even though i don't agree or dislike it so much i still respect it.. it's their brain and mind after all that's thinking of those things, it's not mine.. lols.. and it's their heart beating for that thoughts.. lols.. changing yourself is hard, when you get used to doing or thinking of something since the world begun, it would be difficult for you to change your pattern of thinking but it can be possible if you work hard on it and if you're willing to.. but it's still damn hard, haha.. so what more changing someone else's views or perspective or opinions... lols..
Conversing or putting yourself into argument with people who are firm with their opinions or beliefs that is against to yours will just drain you out.. lols.. your brain might dried out.. lols.. until you can't think of anything anymore.. then that becomes alzheimer's.. huh.. that's why i don't read articles anymore that i don't share the same beliefs.. lols.. especially when it comes to my Angels.. coz i know i will just get drained out of my energy.. as what my Angel Preacher had advised, "don't be with people who are sucking up your energy (meaning negative people and those who always whines even in the littlest of things.. huh) but be with people who gives you hope, joy and sees life as a wonderful creation of God".. it's not how he exactly said it... lols... but it's the message i got from his talk.. hahaha.. but hey, he also said that "but if you are strong enough not to be burden by them, then be friends with them still.. who knows you might influence them to see the beauty of life" (again not his exact words but just the message i got..lols) so even though i have loved these people, and some i still love them, i don't really attached myself with them anymore, to some that is.. keke.. coz to some of them, i still keep them in my friends list and in my life because we have learned to RESPECT each other's beliefs however different it maybe.. besides, since we are all friends, we already know what not to talk about that would just make us argue.. hahahaha.. we just enjoy each other's company and talk about things that we share and agree about.. haha.. so there won't be any stress around the friendship.. lols.. cause we RESPECT each our own beliefs.. we don't drag each other to believe what we believe in but we just respect each other and accepts that we are all different and unique.. kekeke.. and we love each other even though we disagree at some point.. but come to think of it, just made me realize right now that i still have friends too that i always disagree with things.. lols.. irritates us most of the time coz we really have different views but after the argument, its as if nothing has happened.. we laugh and we share another funny story.. we just accepted that our friendship really shares different points of view.. lols.. but we love each other like a sister... she's there for me when i need someone.. we care for each other.. i guess, there can be relationships like that, depends on the other person involved on how we are able to handle our relationship.. more on RESPECT actually ^_^ and unconditional LOVE ^_^
but what is this article about anyway? lols.. i am loosing my focus on what made me write this article.. hahahaha.. as i am speaking in general now.. pppfffhahahahah.. what made me really write this article? oh, actually it's more about my fangirling world.. i thought that the world of fangirling will only give me happiness.. but reality as what in real world is, happiness goes hand in hand with sadness and miseries.. frustrations and disappointments.. lols.. oh well..
i am still new in my world of fangirling, i thought being a fangirl you just follow your biases and just enjoy their shows, enjoy news or updates about them, supports them by buying their albums, watching and anticipating their upcoming shows and events.. but i guess not, because there come the word "fan wars", i thought the only war i heard was war of the worlds.. lols.. as much as you enjoy following your biases you also encounter disappointments and frustrations.. huh.. and waking up that you are caught up in that war.. wahhaaa...
topics about RESPECT for your biases becomes a big deal, how far should you go as a fan.. sometimes it confuses me honestly.. one time, a photo edited ignited a "fan war".. i can't believe it, just a mere edited photo (photoshoped of PSed as they call it) will get things out of hand and so chaotic.. i was really shocked to be a part of it.. some people exchanging and sharing their views about it.. lots of things have been said and done.. well, i thought it was already a closed book but then again, it is opened again.. huh.. an edited photo making everyone crazy exchanging hurtful words.. sigh.. when it first happened, i told one of my sister in KHJ world my view because she shared her views and told me she's disappointed and mad about a picture she saw.. so i asked her what picture is that.. then she showed me, its a picture of my Angel Prince and Angel Princess, their on a bed but fully dressed.. he's yawning and she is still lying on the bed.. i think those pictures that they merge together was from my Angels photo shoots.. since some JoongBoers are really expert in editing pictures and they miss seeing my two Angels together, they do those things.. so when i saw it i was like, what's so damn maddening or irritating about this picture? i don't really see it on my side.. huh.. and this is my view (not the exact word i told her but its my view about PSed photos) "i don't see anything wrong with the picture of my Angels being together, if both my Angels are naked and these people who edited it made it more like their doing something intimate then that's the time i'll go ballistic.. because it is really disrespectful already.. but as far as i can see there's nothing wrong with the pictures that was shared.. they are in their clothes.. besides, how come fans don't react when my Angel Prince Kim Hyun Joong is PSed on a body of an animal or if he's partnered with a guy making them gay, for me that's more degrading and more other edited pictures that's been shared and is now all over internet, base on my point of view, these pictures are really more degrading than the pictures of my two Angels (or maybe i am just being so biased.. roflmao)... when we see the pictures where he has a body of a dog or lion or whatever animal they put his head we just laughed and we enjoyed it too much because for us it is so damn cute! even pictures comparing him to animals but we all just ROFLMAO.. we are so damn happy about it.. and seeing him hugging another guy is more acceptable with other fans than seeing him with other woman especially my Angel Princess.. coz when he is partnered on the PSed photo with a girl especially with my Angel Princess the fans are in rage! it becomes a big deal.. everybody's throwing hurtful words.. saying demeaning words.. i really don't understand!" so, is it more acceptable to them for him to be branded as gay than a playboy??? huh.. but what's more acceptable really? what's the bases? what's the rule in editing the photos? i honestly really don't understand.. they say because it will give false impression on the new fans.. as for me, new fans are not that stupid to just believe on what they see.. if i remember it clearly, they start asking.. "is he married? who's the girl? is he in a relationship?" then its time for us fans who knows nothing to tell them point blank, "we have no idea" or "we don't know" because WE REALLY DON'T KNOW ANYTHING!!!.. and we can tell them "don't believe on what you say or heard, he's not affirming anything yet.. he said he's not in a relationship.. but since i am a JoongBoer, i wish he ends up with my Angel Princess Hwangbo Hye Jung.." when she starts asking who is Hwangbo then i will share to her the WGM cuts.. lols.. then it's for her to decide if she will be a fan of my Angel Prince Kim Hyun Joong, a fan of my Angel Princess Hwangbo Hye Jung or a fan of both and becomes a JoongBoer like me.. ^_^ duh.. she has a mind and heart of her own, she can decide for herself.. i don't have to dictate, i am not a dictator for one and i am not related to Hitler! lmao
but really.. until where should the boundary be between a fan like me and my Angels.. honestly, when i hear something a bit private about them, i get a little excited coz i feel like i am closer to them.. lols (feeling close???!! as in!!?? ako na!! lmao) .. am i a stalker? am i stalking them? i wanted to... ROFLMAO (laughing as if there's no tomorrow) but i don't have the resources.. pwahahahahahah.. just like other fans.. oh, i envy those fans who's always present at the airport and his events.. gosh, they are so rich! kindly share to me some of your fortunes! lmao.. well, i wish to be stalking my Angels on airports, events, etc.. lols.. even at home????? nah, that's too private, i can't invade that anymore.. that wouldn't be nice because i hate it as well.. haha.. i don't like it when our neighbor is in our "sala" (living room) because i feel like i can't do what i want.. i always wear short shorts when i am at home but when there's someone in the living room with my dad, it irritates me.. lols.. coz i can't go out parading my lechon size leg.. pwahahhahaahhaahah... wooottttttttttt.. but hey, what can i do, it's how things are, so if i want to go out i just change my shorts to my jogging pants then come out of my room.. keke.. you gotta learn to adjust with things so it won't stress you out.. haha.. well, i guess i am a bit of a private person too in some way so i understand my biases if they don't divulge nor share everything that is happening to them, not even their love life (oh i wanna know about it.. lmao).. my Angels have all the right not to publicly known some part of their lives.. they deserve that too.. there are things that are special and precious to them that the only person they want to share it with are their families and close friends.. but there are things too that they want to shout to the world.. i guess i will just wait for that time to come.. some of the things that they will share the world ^_^ .. i do know that as an artists especially Hallyu Star at that, they have reputations that they are trying their best to protect.. so i respect that.. if only they can become like the Hollywood Stars who are open with their relationships or local artists who are parading the love of their lives.. i could only wish.. sigh.. i hope and pray that the world wouldn't be too selfish on them.. deep sigh..
well as for being "chismosa" (gossiper) i guess it's human nature.. especially to people who doesn't have much to do with their lives.. lols.. well, i thought only one country are known for being "chismosa" but i realized it's all over the world.. lols.. but for me, i'd rather talk about my Angels with other fans that talk about life of other people.. lols.. and i don't really believe in rumors unless i have proofs.. and i don't go around spreading these rumors that i was able to pick up.. hahahaha.. (chismosa lang) unless you force me to tell it.. hmmmm i'll think about it.. pwahhahaha.. besides i am a busy person with a busy life so i don't have time for that.. as in???!!! pwahahahahahha... just reading updates of my Angels my time are all used up.. what more to go to other people's blogs, articles or watch other videos that doesn't involve my Angels.. duh.. and if ever my Angels are hibernating and silent with their own world, i just busy myself with other stuffs but never with blogs or threads that will only make me feel miserable.. lols.. there are times when i am asked in my real world (not in my fangirling world that is.. lols) about my Angel Prince Kim Hyun Joong.. at times i am guilty in saying, he is already married, married to my Angel Princess Hwangbo Hye Jung.. pwahahahahah.. but hey, i was just kidding them, because i tell them immediately, "No, i was just kidding, i was just pairing them up.. i don't really know anything about their personal life.." because it's the truth.. i don't know anything!!! my goodness, i am not a fortune teller and i don't read minds.. i also don't have visions of my life much more of other people's lives.. pwahahaha.. i am just a fan who updates myself on things about them through other fans updates and blogs (blogs that only talks about good things about them.. and not a biased blog.. lmao).. though i'll be guilty with saying, yes i do wish that they would end up together someday but reality is i don't even know if they are dating at all or dated at all.. i may believe in something but it's just my belief.. mine and mine alone.. i don't go telling other fans to believe me.. or insists that they are a couple.. omo, what am i crazy-stupid person???!!! i am, yeah.. pwahaha.. but i won't insist on you something that i have no proof at all! and even if i do have proof about it, unless my Angels are the one who announced it and affirmed it, i won't force you to follow my belief.. reality is, i don't have any idea if they are in a relationship right now, he with other lady and she with other man.. i have NO IDEA! and besides, compared on pairing him to my Angel Princess and to myself, i'd rather pair him to my Angel Princess coz pairing him to me is stupidly absurd and totally damn funny.. pwahahahhaahha.. me and him??? oh my goodness.. lmao.. okay i am actually guilty of being absurd because i am honestly paring myself to his boss Bae Yong Joon (hides from BYJ fans) lmao.. but it's just my wild fancy to be reincarnated as his wife.. next time.. i may get lucky next time.. roflmao.. peace everyone.. haha
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omo, this article is getting longer isn't it.. but i am not yet done.. lmao.. and if it's dragging and boring you out and draining your energy, well so sorry about that.. i'll just cheer you up so you could continue reading this article.. lols.. here it is.. "Kim Hyun Jong Wǔliùqī Jiayu Jiayu Jiayu! Ssangchu Ssangchu Ssangchu!!" and the picture of the loves of my life ^_^ oh how gorgeous and lovely they are.. aren't they? wwwiiiii.. makes me giddy honestly.. pwahahaha... wwooohhhoo
okay, let's continue with my ranting.. lols
i have two (2) sisters in my fangirling world of Kim Hyun Joong who are not a JoongBo Couple follower like me but still we are friends, we love each other dearly even though we haven't met each other in person... because they respect my love for my Angels.. they know i love both Kim Hyun Joong and Hwangbo Hye Jung as individual persons.. and they respect me for that.. even my friends in my real world, my personal facebook account is flooded with my biases/Angels and one of my friend when we met joked "i thought it's a virus whenever i see his (Kim Hyun Joong) face on your profile.. because it's most that i see.. haha" and i just told her excitedly "woah, that's such a HANDSOME VIRUS" pwahhahahaahha.. so, everything that is thrown on me, i accept it positively.. lols..
well, going back to why my JoongBo siblings got pissed and disappointed.. some were sad too.. it's about an article that they read.. and as i advised them, don't go there anymore and read such articles.. even if it is shared to you, don't read it.. well, i am a bit guilty at that.. at first when they shared it to me, i didn't read it.. but as i knew myself well, i am a curious cat.. lols... so after trying myself a hundredth times not to read whatever it is that irritated them and made them sad, i still went and read that article.. while reading it, as neutral as i can be.. i understood their side.. as i do understand that each and everyone of us have our own point that we want to be clear to what we want to tell the world.. and for each and everyone of us we are right.. because we believe in it.. such reason why i have written on the first part of this article about having different views.. i couldn't blame them if they insist on what they believe in.. it's their belief and it's how they see things.. i don't know anything about entertainment world in general, i am not an artist nor an entertainer, much more to the world of Korean Entertainment.. i've never been to Korea, though it's one of my dream.. keke.. but when some fans told me that some of the fans are possessive, i was like "what??".. in our country, when our favorite actor or actress are paired with someone other than who we preferred, at first we go ballistic but after awhile we just accept their happiness.. besides if we really know how to love, and we do love our biases, we also learn to love the people they love even though we don't prefer them to be their partner... lols.. and as for me, i'd rather want my biases to be with the person who loves them and takes care of them than to be alone just because their fans wants them to be single.. if you're a true fan, new or old, young or adult, if you truly love your bias, you will just accept your bias whether he's single or in a relationship.. besides, my biases are the best.. in every performance they offer only the BEST! in albums, events, games, sports.. anywhere my biases are, they simply are the BEST.. so how can i not love them even they have flaws.. but these flaws becomes invisible and i forget all about it because the good things and great personality that my Angels possesses are more than enough for me to love them unconditionally.. accepts them and supports them for who and what they are... and because i feel my Angel's love for me as a fan.. though i am not close to them personally, i only met my Angel Prince Kim Hyun Joong once and i haven't met my Angel Princess yet (oohhh i wish to meet her soon) but i can feel their love.. the fan service that they give, giving all their best in everything they do for their fans.. i can feel the warmth of their love even though i am just looking at them from afar ^_^ they make me smile, they make me happy even in the midst of miseries.. they are one of the reasons why i laugh as if there's no tomorrow.. oh yes, they are but just one of the reasons.. keke.. i have a lot of reasons to be happy and that makes me happy but both my Angels are a part of it and plays a great role in my happiness ^_^
as i go along my journey with my Angels, sometimes i just want to believe all of what i am hearing and what's being reported.. lols.. but still, i don't have proof, do i??? i do know that there are fans who partner their biases to their preferred woman/man but to own them.. huh.. i for one is partnering Kim Hyun Joong to Hwangbo Hye Jung, but it doesn't mean that i have the power to make it happen.. both of my Angels have a mind of their own and they will chose the person based on their judgement. Both of them are smart and intelligent, so i know they know what they are doing with their lives.. though i do pray that they end up together (guilty at that) but even if i go kneeling on a church the whole day, if they are not meant to be together and if my Angels wants to be with someone else, there's nothing much i can do about that.. it's their life and they have all the rights to be happy with the person they do want to share their whole life with.. as for me, i am just a fan that hopes for them to be together but wishes for their happiness as individuals..
I remember they say that Kim Hyun Joong, my Angel Prince being paired with different woman and these fandoms insisting that he's in a relationship with the ladies they preferred for him.. huh.. and that makes him a "playboy".. old or new, you as a fan is responsible to make a research first about your bias before you conclude... and whatever your conclusion is, it may be wrong to others but the thing is, it might be right for you.. just my opinion.. and if you are a true fan, (i am talking about my thoughts here..) you wouldn't just believe on rumors ("rumor : a story or statement in general circulation without confirmation or certainty as to facts" - source dictionary.com).. and whatever rumor is it as long as there's no proof, it will always be a rumor, just a mere hearsay .. why jump into conclusion without any bases.. so for the fans, most especially the new fans, make time to research first before jumping into conclusion.. even when i was younger, partnering your bias to the person you preferred to be with them till lifetime is already existing.. it's already a part of the world of the artists.. and it would be hard changing that.. its already in the system.. since the world begun.. toinks.. and just like what i have said awhile ago, if you are a true fan who loves your bias, you will continue to love him and support him whether he is single or in a relationship..
me as a fan, i don't just listen to rumors.. i try to research.. and i have written on my previous article how i became in this world of fangirling.. i know i can never insists on people because each of us has our own mind that works for us.. whatever we want to believe in, whatever we want to firmly believe, it's our right.. it's our perspective.. even if other fans insists that he's going out with some lady and not my Angel Princess, i must admit my heart does constricts but i won't believe it until you give me the proof.. show me the PROOF BEYBEH.. lmao.. honestly, this is me.. even in my real world, when someone tells me something, at first i asks myself "is it true? could it be true?" then i go to the person involve and ask that person if what's been spreading as rumors is true.. and when he/she tells me that it's not true, i only believe him/her no matter what other people says.. because it's his/her life, its his/her own!!!! why would i care with others.. haha.. as i've said, even though i've been partnering my Angels together, as long as they are not the one who tells me and the world that they are in a relationship, all i can do is hope.. merely HOPE!
sometimes i wonder why fans or people react the way they do.. one thing is they want to hold on to something.. something that they feel at peace with.. something that makes them feel at home and accepted.. something that makes us feel we belong.. i have learned to fall in love with my biases when i watched WGM.. yes at first, my impression was, if only they stayed longer on the show, i bet they have fallen in love coz i can see something magical about them.. i tried to research about them being together but to no avail.. after that reality show, they weren't visible together.. not even on one show.. but then i stumble upon other fans who loved this couple, the reason why i fell in love with them all the more.. you see, in this life, in my real world and in my fangirling world, acceptance is so important... where i can hold on to something, where i feel at peace with.. and i belong.. so finding these fans, and knowing them i feel like i have found a home in my fangirling world coz i could talk about them my Angels without judging me or telling me ugly things that i have read on others comments and blogs.. admit it or not to ourselves but we are looking for something we belong too.. as what my Angel Preacher had shared in his talk "~~ deep in our hearts, our most basic need, found in our DNA, written in our genetic code, is the need to belong to the community, a friendship, a network, a club, a family.. we have a desperate need for LOVE!" and with Kim Hyun Joong's world, we can experience and feel all of it ^_^ with this i want to share this link.. http://bosanchez.ph/how-to-win-in-4-areas-of-life%E2%80%A6/ its not about fangirling world but its about reality.. it will help us all a lot.. i know.. it always help me reading my Angel Preacher articles.. kekekeke.. other than reading hateful blogs or negative blogs or blogs that doesn't agree with you why not try to read once in a while a blog that gives positive outlook in life ^_^
oh before i end this long-dragging-energy sucking article.. roflmao, i just want to share this funny experience i have.. lols.. it's funny really for other fans, coz i have made this fanvids of my Angels, since they are my biases that's why (valid reason right? lols) yet i will find comments about my videos saying my Angels Princess is much better with this other idol.. huh.. i don't know what's running through their minds, are they just envious that there are fanvids (meaning a video made by a fan.. lols) about my Angels and there's not much about their biases???!! i wonder, coz if they have, they won't be busy browsing and watching fanvids of artists that they don't support.. makes me ROFLMAO (laughing as if there's no tomorrow).. really.. hahah
and i have answered their comments with this ~~
"i respect your opinion but just like what i have said to others, "you see i am a KHJ and HHJ fan.. so whatever you say i don't really give a damn.. i love both Kim Hyun Joong and Hwangbo Hye Jung, be as a couple or as an individual i will always support them.. they are the only one who can say who's better for them.. so whoever they chose to spend the rest of their lives with i will be happy for them as long as they are happy.. ~~"
and yet someone still made her comment on my vids.. gah, at first i was irritated but now actually i am just ROFLMAO.. gosh, aren't they that busy or their bias not that busy at all.. because if their biases are busy, then they would be busy with their updates and they won't have time going or lurking around other people videos.. lmao.. or, is it just human nature to mind other people's business???!! i guess so.. well, i just have to accept reality at that.. hahaha.. and all i can say to them is.. "I am Happy with my biases.. Hope they'll be happy too.." ^_^
oh, one more thing, i have read that when you're an "Idol", you are like the fans' property.. until now i am having a short of understanding on that part.. is it true? is it really really true? some of these fans claiming their biases as their own????? and these fans decides for their biases?? some even being hostile and aggressive, hurting the lady or man in the lives of their biases?? are these "Idols" considered as a "thing" to be one's possession.. God, the world has really gone mad!!! but i guess such people do exists even though i haven't meet one.. oh i never wish to meet one!!! wahhhh.. these "Idols" are human for God's sake.. no one owns them other than themselves.. i myself don't consider that my parents own me.. why??? because God gave me a mind of my own, a brain and heart that is solely mine.. yes God used my parents so i be born in this confusing world but hey, they are just there to love me, care for me and guide me as i grow up so i won't go astray.. but hey, no one owns me other than myself and GOD.. whenever i feel sad, it's my heart that's breaking though they are also hurting for me but the pain is mine alone.. though i believe in the saying that "a problem shared is a problem halve and a happiness shared is a happiness doubled.." yes it is also true, but when you have worries and problems, the brain that is working is your brain and the heart that is hurting is yours.. each and everyone of us has our own mind and brain and heart.. if we get sick, we are the one sick.. our families and friends are a great comfort but still we are the ones who are weak.. we are the one's who's suffering.. and when we die, though our loved ones are with us on our death bed staring at us, but as we journey to the other side, we will be alone unless God will send His angels to pick us up.. that is if we were good on earth.. ^_^ and we will face God alone! yes ALONE! coz WE OWN OURSELVES! we don't have to answer to anyone else other than ourselves and God.. our family, friends, colleagues and all other people we have met along the way won't be with us.. unless we are in one place when the accident happen and we all dies, that's then maybe we will journey in the other side of the world together.. hahaha.. wwoootttt.. honestly, i don't know if i am clear in giving my view.. but if no one agrees with me, then what the heck.. its just my view.. ROFLMAO
well, love me or hate me for what i have said but this is just my sole opinion and i don't give a damn if you hate me because i don't even know you, whoever you are.. lmao.. but if you love me, then i send you too my love through prayers of success and happiness ^_^ but for the haters, i still give my love and prayers so you won't be burden with hate and be in so much stress, it will just make you sick you know.. i must say, just be happy with your biases, be happy with what you believe in and spread love coz my biases, my Angels, my Prince and Princess, Kim Hyun Joong and Hwangbo Hye Jung are all about HAPPINESS and LOVE ^_^
and for that, i will cheer for all of you.. whether you're haters.. lols.. this is all for you most especially to my JoongBo siblings ^_^ "Kim Hyun Jong Wǔliùqī Jiayu Jiayu Jiayu! Ssangchu Ssangchu Ssangchu!!"
